As if my opinion even matters anymore;
Aaron, you're not annoying. You're one of my best friends. I just wish I knew you in real life so I could help you. ALL of you. You, Haruka and Puru seem like the ones who have had it the hardest. And all I want to do for you guys is be able to help.
Sure, we live and die, but the point of living is whatever you make of it. For one, I enjoy seeing how life around us slowly changes as the years advance. Just like they did before. Technology was improved, the world of music expanded, and transportation is slowly, but surely, growing into something greater. The entire world is moving forward. Everything we do brings us one step closer. No matter what it is, you'll always be moving forward. Every second, we move forward in time. And if you think about it, all we're doing is moving forward. Sure you'd say stuff like "oh but east is just backwards of west", but think about it. You may be moving in a different direction than someone else, but both of you are moving forward. The only thing forward is to a person is whatever you perceive it to be.
tl;dr version: Don't be so hard on yourself. If people don't like you, that's just their opinion. And you don't have to respect them for it if they can't respect you.
And trust me, I'm just about as critical as you are. That's why I have friends. Like Haruka. Like Adam. Like YOU. Yes, I'm talking about you, Aaron. Every time you make me smile, everything about you that makes me laugh keeps me just inches away from declining deeper and deeper into depression. I'm surprised you're not dead after all you've told me about. Seriously, if you've gone through so much and you're STILL here, then I think that's DEFINITELY a sign that you were meant to do something great. You could be like a life survival teacher or some shit, I dunno. A lot of you guys have been through a hell of a lot more than me, I'm sure of that. Hell, you could be a porn artist if you wanted to. But I'm not going to tell you to do anything. The only person that can tell you what to do with your life is you. Sure, you're not going to be good at everything. That doesn't even matter. The only thing that matters is enjoying the things you do. It's your life, so you should make something out of it and enjoy living.